have a really bad day today…

first start with the not so impt thing

got a real big scare just now… my reaction to it is a nv seen before footage… when am going home.. i was deep in thoughts den i saw a cat in front of me.. and it’s looking at me.. every step i took it also moves… and the direction it’s moving is where am suppose to walk… it stopped suddenly and i was trying to get pass it.. but it keep looking at me.. so i move slowly…walking pass it i tried to continue my walk to the lift.. den guess what i saw.. i saw a rat.. it was dark and i cant see clearly.. so i got a better look and it started to run away… i got scare… den after i walk up the stairs den at lift there le… door open den OMG my reaction big… got scare by the man inside.. he was walking out den scare until me cause i keep thinking of the twos things behind which is not… den nv notice people may come out… my reaction super big and i super paisae… in the lift my heart ba-bom so hard siaaa…

secondly

it hurts every where… my tongue throat head mind heart..everywhere… i know crying doesnt help but i still cant help crying.. hope no one sees me in that shape on bus.. luckily i sit in front… first seat some more… i feel that everything i says is wrong… everything i says will turn bad.. maybe worse than that… maybe i really shld  talk lesser from now on.. 说多错多 only… am real tired of quarrelling already.. although i keep ignore quarrel msg-es but it just keep coming… and i got my limit.. to prevent it from going worst i rather stop it.. looking back at the msg-es make me tear again… really wish it could stop… it really hurts to see you like that.. like you are tired of listening to me saying sorry.. am tired of myself saying it already.. i think i did nothing wrong..

arghh.. i dont want think le… go do my homework le… one day nv finish work.. next day pile up even more…