yesterday was a super busy day… for jap class i learn smth-ing new that allow us to go further up in the language… super tough.. i think next sem i wont be able to continue already that’s really sad.. :(

after jap i went home to eat cause singhui says to eat at home…  so i rushed home to eat.. den i rush to white sand… suppose to meet at 2… den know what… stupid huiqi cant wake up again.. we already reached there le den we sms her lots of times with no reply… call also nv pick up.. den singhui called her house… huiqi’s sis answer siaa and her voice sounds just like huiqi’s den singhui was like thinking “you siao arh, you huiqi you still ask huiqi to ans”… L-O-L…  den huiqi answered den we ask her faster come… den we walk around white sand to look for the present.. cant find any siaa… wanted to buy hard disk which she needed.. but huiqi say bo hua the price.. while waiting for huiqi me and singhui walked around.. i asked to play arcade.. den when i was playing there was this few stupid kids keep tapping their cards on my machine siaa… feel so irritated den i stomp off when i end the game.. huiqui still haven reach den we went to kopitiam to eat dessert.. after dessert we feel very cold cause is ice ma.. den we eat prawn de chee chong fan :D  nice siaaa.. den we chat and wait for huiqi to come.. everytime buy present is huiqi choose de cause we like no opinion.. even if we have huiqi also shoot our opinion de.. so we just stand behind her den she choose :D we bought watch for her siaa..

after buying we decided to go to the place already maybe to help out or smth.. but hor.. when we go to lvl 1 huiqi say another watch shop den we stay there for a few mins and bought my and huqi bought 2 identical pocket clock or smth.. :D

when we really leave the mall.. we waited for the bus like so long siaa… den when we reach the stop we waited for baby to come :D ( love ya! ) come le we walked in the place tgt… so happy to see baby.. :D stayed in the place for like afew hours.. had fun playing and eating and sleeping :p was so tired.. den baby wear necklace for me.. i so happy siaaa.. :D when i return home… i went to bathe den watch tv waiting for hair dry den go to bed.. to tired to msg baby le.. when lying down.. i keep touching the necklace… it’s very nice to hold on and touch :D and i loved the ‘cling’ ‘cling’ sound it made…. totally loved it!! LOVE YOU BABY!

have a really bad day today…

first start with the not so impt thing

got a real big scare just now… my reaction to it is a nv seen before footage… when am going home.. i was deep in thoughts den i saw a cat in front of me.. and it’s looking at me.. every step i took it also moves… and the direction it’s moving is where am suppose to walk… it stopped suddenly and i was trying to get pass it.. but it keep looking at me.. so i move slowly…walking pass it i tried to continue my walk to the lift.. den guess what i saw.. i saw a rat.. it was dark and i cant see clearly.. so i got a better look and it started to run away… i got scare… den after i walk up the stairs den at lift there le… door open den OMG my reaction big… got scare by the man inside.. he was walking out den scare until me cause i keep thinking of the twos things behind which is not… den nv notice people may come out… my reaction super big and i super paisae… in the lift my heart ba-bom so hard siaaa…

secondly

it hurts every where… my tongue throat head mind heart..everywhere… i know crying doesnt help but i still cant help crying.. hope no one sees me in that shape on bus.. luckily i sit in front… first seat some more… i feel that everything i says is wrong… everything i says will turn bad.. maybe worse than that… maybe i really shld  talk lesser from now on.. 说多错多 only… am real tired of quarrelling already.. although i keep ignore quarrel msg-es but it just keep coming… and i got my limit.. to prevent it from going worst i rather stop it.. looking back at the msg-es make me tear again… really wish it could stop… it really hurts to see you like that.. like you are tired of listening to me saying sorry.. am tired of myself saying it already.. i think i did nothing wrong..

arghh.. i dont want think le… go do my homework le… one day nv finish work.. next day pile up even more…

staring at the clock aimlessly for minutes… and guess what… it’s slanted!! :D

the lonely feeling make me tear again.. i need smth to talk to… but no one is there? dont want to talk anymore… sick of talking to people le… shld just say am going to bed soon…

am tired of my life… i no longer want to be the person i am now… i don’t desire anything anymore… i wish i could just sleep and nv wake up… but it’s so warm… haixx… can i just quit everything stay at home and slack? really hope so… i need a rest…

arghhh!!!! FINE!!

am alright… it’s just a small tingling feeling of sadness…

i dont like to force cause i dont like people force me.. when dar ask what i want for my bday.. after a few weeks i thought of the ring thing.. but i dont dare to say so i keep it to myself but dar keep asking den i decided to tell.. i was so scared when i ask cause i was thinking i’m gonna get rejected… but surprisingly he agreed… make me so happy.. now say isnt it too fast.. shouldn’t you reject me from the beginning.. idiot!! next time pls think before you answer..

so much to say.. but where do i start..

dar today mood super bad.. i got scolded.. cause i said smth wrong.. but the way he scold i cannot accept.. it may seem to others that the word is common and it just come out of no where no matter what they say or do.. but i just cant accept.. it’s only me i think.. cant stand the way dar talk today.. i rather dont chat then you giving me that kind of reply.. if you dont want talk just say no mood to chat.. i dont mind de.. you miss me but you dont want to.. den dont think of me man.. everytime we starts to quarrel is because of dar getting moody cause dar think of him… ZZZzzzz… worst thing that can happen in this relationship… dar thinking of negative stuff.. what’s that ‘negative’ stuff?? he doesnt want to share.. what can i do?

test again :D