haixx... was having such a deep sleep and mum woke me up just like that... she open my room door... and i got scare and woke up... although she doesnt know i was awake... den i just stayed in bed... den wanted to go back to sleep, dad opened the door... i was like... stop disturbing me... i wanna sleep.. in my mind... i thought it was over and i can go back to sleep siiaaa... now came ah ma... arhhhh... why must they open the door to see me when they know i'll be asleep.... just dont understand.... awake on my bed i was thinking about what happened yesterday... dunno how to face them today siaa... kinda my fault also... haixx...den i was like dont think too much... i clipped up my hair and went to wash up... in the toilet i was thinking about my studies... why did i take up so many things when i think i cannot cope with what i'm doing now.... haixx... hold on.. i go wash away the foam of the soap... it dry up already ............................................................................................................................ had my cup of warm water i drink everyday.. wore my specs and i'm back to what i'm saying... hump... where was i? ohh about my studies... haixx... yesterday tea reception saw PEM and guess what he said... "You must take on any opportunities that came by" that really was the line that make me feel kinda of must work harder... it just a feel though.. i'm not working hard enough... not as before... yesterday was like so many people already started the IP i was like OMG why are they so hardworking... and i was still thinking of doing it in the weekends which == gg... cause i may not do it.. depends on my mood... OMG it's oNLY 9... and on one is online yet... was wondering what food i should eat later... kinda hungry and it must last till 7 plus 8 ba when i reach home... today will be another LONG LONG day... haixx... idk why am i sick of all the food i eat... half way i can get sick of it le... am i ill or smth... got an ulcer yesterday in my mouth siaaa lucky is a small one.. got feel that it will get bigger and bigger... den my blue black on my legg.. hope it get well soon man... like now one red patch cause i rubbed it... abit ugly on my legg... like obviously one red patch... haixx... what can i do at this time in the morning siaa....although i said i'm bored everyday... i didnt play my wii siaa... dunno why.. maybe i'm already sick of it also... but i paid it myself... so ex... and everyone else just come and playy...dad got say wanna help pay half... but i didnt get it... den now got my credit card bills also.. bought games with it.. mum said would pay for me in the end i pay myself also... den very funny la.. when i'm paying myself.. why ask me use credits to pay for my contacts... i was like already prepared my money le lor... den mum ask me pay by credits... haixxx... siannnn.... didnt get my "school money" as i wanted every month de... dunno what happened... hope i can it it this way next month if not idk how to save up my money and keep spending..you give now tmr spend finished... my jaw was like hurting this few days lor... dunno what can i do about it.. huiqi last time also like that.. den say brush teeth more... but i dont believe can solve it... just wait for another few days ba..... shld think of what food to eat now... bro was.. OMG she's online... arhhhh... hope she leave me alone..... bro was like so bored also.. he bored = we die... he will come disturb us... although two days ago he came to my room... saw we all three was like going to sleep le... lights already offed... i looked at him and he say good night siaa... first time he say good night to me... in my whole life man... kinda sweet of him =D... den yesterday den 9 plus mum came and asked why we not sleeping.. i was like it's only 9 plus haven even 10 yet den she laughed and went back... now came bro... he was like jumping here and there wanted to sit in the empty space on my bed and fat sis's bed... just sit there.. den we ask him to cook super cause i was hungry... abit sick also of the food lucky is a small serving only... haixx... said i should go find food and i'm still here siaaa....

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